(Saturday, July 26, 2008-)
+7:46 PM]*
+7:46 PM]*
# gone with the wind.-
that was the last of my cempakan days.
okay, so maybe i did want to leave cempaka in the beginning, the school wasn’t all that good.
but i also didn’t want to leave for the sake of harimau and all the extra activities that came with it.
so, for the past few months of my cempaka life, i’ve been praying, for a miracle.
that i’d get the scholarship i needed to stay.
but i didn’t get it.
maybe it was good for me, but then again, maybe i was worthless after all.
yes, i was.
and this commencements totally proved it.
everyone in cempaka is so highly awarded, for all i’ve done or tried to do, it simply wasn’t enough.
so as i leave cempaka, i dare say; i will thoroughly cherish every moment of it, of my bittersweet ten years as a cempakan.
yes, now, i am simply isabelle, the non-cempakan, tanaratian.
(chehwahhh. so formal.)
i don’t even know why, but i couldn’t sleep at all when i got home from commencements.
must be the depression.
it wasn’t as bad as when i found out the first time i was leaving, but was close.
i stared at the rotating fan above me until two with glimpses of my life in cempaka popping randomly in my head all the time. i was tired, but i couldn’t sleep.
thanks for making me feel better you.
as to continue my super emo post;
to my friends;
those who really kept me standing on two feet.
supported me when i struggled.
and helped me back up when i fell.
*
what can i say. you are ze bomb. and come to tanarata, don’t ditch me all alone in year eleven please.
joanne; delphine;
my star cheerleaders. joanne, i’ll see you in tanarata. and delphine; i guess maybe i’ll see you someday, in gis. *sobsobs* kudos to my cheerleaders. i love you guys to bits. thanks for everything - to cut it short. joanne; welcome to tanarata. :P
okay, so i think i have been ranting for forever and a half.
i’ll stop here.
and those who i didn’t mention; my apologies for not including you guys.
you guys still mean alot to me and i do mean alot.
and so i’ll go on with my life from here.
so here ends my cempaka life.
period.
okay, so maybe i did want to leave cempaka in the beginning, the school wasn’t all that good.
but i also didn’t want to leave for the sake of harimau and all the extra activities that came with it.
so, for the past few months of my cempaka life, i’ve been praying, for a miracle.
that i’d get the scholarship i needed to stay.
but i didn’t get it.
maybe it was good for me, but then again, maybe i was worthless after all.
yes, i was.
and this commencements totally proved it.
everyone in cempaka is so highly awarded, for all i’ve done or tried to do, it simply wasn’t enough.
so as i leave cempaka, i dare say; i will thoroughly cherish every moment of it, of my bittersweet ten years as a cempakan.
yes, now, i am simply isabelle, the non-cempakan, tanaratian.
(chehwahhh. so formal.)
i don’t even know why, but i couldn’t sleep at all when i got home from commencements.
must be the depression.
it wasn’t as bad as when i found out the first time i was leaving, but was close.
i stared at the rotating fan above me until two with glimpses of my life in cempaka popping randomly in my head all the time. i was tired, but i couldn’t sleep.
thanks for making me feel better you.
as to continue my super emo post;
to my friends;
those who really kept me standing on two feet.
supported me when i struggled.
and helped me back up when i fell.
*
` my dearest class of 2009
sugeeta;
my one-stop tuition centre.
thanks for EVERYTHING. there’s way too much to describe what you’ve done for me these nine years i have known you oh-so-well. thank you for helping with school work, thank you for sharing my secrets; thank you for the stuff you gave me year after year. sugee, i will miss you like *insert super big descriptive word here* .
ameli;
my super advisor.
thank you for totally supporting me, and sharing the boy problems we all totally face. even if you ran my phone bill up by a mile... i’ll miss that too. i’ll totally miss your one-of-a-kind sneezing and definitely dressing up for functions; even if we only did that once. :P thanks for all of it dear, ever moment is definitely stored in my useless hollow skull.
charis;
the best lab mate ever.
yes, i know you’re super annoyed i’m moving, but hey, its not like i was the only one around you could trust. trust me charis, i will miss you more than you’ll miss me. who’s going to tell me which is the right chemical to put into the test tube? who’s going to be my walking dictionary? and who’s going to bug me about my weight? poo.
sumitha;
the sponge which doesn’t stop absorbing.
thank you for bearing with my problems, secrets and everything in between. i have never met a friend so absorbent. for the times we talked on the phone for hours, for the times we could laugh uncontrollably without reason; i thank you. :)
zulyana;
my one spunky pal.
how will i even survive without you. a blackie too. i was honoured to be your senior in the prefect’s board before. now, its your turn. thank you for all the awesome gossip. [and totally introducing me to gossip girl] *smirks*
p.s. as a favour for me when i leave, don’t, i repeat; DON’T call yourself fat anymore. you ain’t.
annabel; rachel; nithiya; vanessa;
my fingers got a wee bit tired of typing.
thanks for being there for me all the time. you guys have been the most supporting people ever; except the fact i was moving to tanarata. i’ll miss all the times we pranked annabel and laughed our heads off. and the times we totally attempted to study during exams and failed. *hugs*
the boys of class 2009;
going to miss your crazy monkeying and your stupid [but hilarious] comments - especially being called “six packs”, the pinching and the camwhoring. HAHA. you guys were always there when i needed you *sorta*; but its great having you guys around. it was good knowing you guys and i’m going to miss it like mad, especially all the lame jokes and the laughter. i’ll be back soon. i hope.
my one-stop tuition centre.
thanks for EVERYTHING. there’s way too much to describe what you’ve done for me these nine years i have known you oh-so-well. thank you for helping with school work, thank you for sharing my secrets; thank you for the stuff you gave me year after year. sugee, i will miss you like *insert super big descriptive word here* .
ameli;
my super advisor.
thank you for totally supporting me, and sharing the boy problems we all totally face. even if you ran my phone bill up by a mile... i’ll miss that too. i’ll totally miss your one-of-a-kind sneezing and definitely dressing up for functions; even if we only did that once. :P thanks for all of it dear, ever moment is definitely stored in my useless hollow skull.
charis;
the best lab mate ever.
yes, i know you’re super annoyed i’m moving, but hey, its not like i was the only one around you could trust. trust me charis, i will miss you more than you’ll miss me. who’s going to tell me which is the right chemical to put into the test tube? who’s going to be my walking dictionary? and who’s going to bug me about my weight? poo.
sumitha;
the sponge which doesn’t stop absorbing.
thank you for bearing with my problems, secrets and everything in between. i have never met a friend so absorbent. for the times we talked on the phone for hours, for the times we could laugh uncontrollably without reason; i thank you. :)
zulyana;
my one spunky pal.
how will i even survive without you. a blackie too. i was honoured to be your senior in the prefect’s board before. now, its your turn. thank you for all the awesome gossip. [and totally introducing me to gossip girl] *smirks*
p.s. as a favour for me when i leave, don’t, i repeat; DON’T call yourself fat anymore. you ain’t.
annabel; rachel; nithiya; vanessa;
my fingers got a wee bit tired of typing.
thanks for being there for me all the time. you guys have been the most supporting people ever; except the fact i was moving to tanarata. i’ll miss all the times we pranked annabel and laughed our heads off. and the times we totally attempted to study during exams and failed. *hugs*
the boys of class 2009;
going to miss your crazy monkeying and your stupid [but hilarious] comments - especially being called “six packs”, the pinching and the camwhoring. HAHA. you guys were always there when i needed you *sorta*; but its great having you guys around. it was good knowing you guys and i’m going to miss it like mad, especially all the lame jokes and the laughter. i’ll be back soon. i hope.
`the harimau hopefuls
shaheila;
i’m gonna miss you my piggie. do harimau proud next year. i’ll be back, smiling on the sidelines. everyone’s counting on you my dear. and make sure cheerleading rules next year, and if you are house captain, tell me. i’m proud of you my piggie. :)
zoe;
you’ve been so awesome this entire year. with swimming and all. as swimming captain next year, you’d be great. yes, you’ll be like me, organising the training, running around for swimmers, finding swimmers and yelling at them. HAH! and just incase you need help, i’ll be there. just be confident zoe, you’ll be great, and, MAKE SURE YOU DON’T LEAVE SCHOOL.
phoebe ly; syazana;
you guys were always the born, perky donkey/duckie cheerleaders, and let’s keep it at that. :P
i’m gonna miss you my piggie. do harimau proud next year. i’ll be back, smiling on the sidelines. everyone’s counting on you my dear. and make sure cheerleading rules next year, and if you are house captain, tell me. i’m proud of you my piggie. :)
zoe;
you’ve been so awesome this entire year. with swimming and all. as swimming captain next year, you’d be great. yes, you’ll be like me, organising the training, running around for swimmers, finding swimmers and yelling at them. HAH! and just incase you need help, i’ll be there. just be confident zoe, you’ll be great, and, MAKE SURE YOU DON’T LEAVE SCHOOL.
phoebe ly; syazana;
you guys were always the born, perky donkey/duckie cheerleaders, and let’s keep it at that. :P
` those leaving cempaka as we know it.
bryna;
my guardian angel.what can i say. you are ze bomb. and come to tanarata, don’t ditch me all alone in year eleven please.
joanne; delphine;
my star cheerleaders. joanne, i’ll see you in tanarata. and delphine; i guess maybe i’ll see you someday, in gis. *sobsobs* kudos to my cheerleaders. i love you guys to bits. thanks for everything - to cut it short. joanne; welcome to tanarata. :P
okay, so i think i have been ranting for forever and a half.
i’ll stop here.
and those who i didn’t mention; my apologies for not including you guys.
you guys still mean alot to me and i do mean alot.
and so i’ll go on with my life from here.
so here ends my cempaka life.
period.
isabelle feels better now. :)
the story ends like this;
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